From Skepticism to Mechanism

 I wonder how many other people's state fluxuates as much as mine does. Perhaps it is the neuroticism applied to the affect itself that creates the experience of flux to the degree that I experience it. Whereas other people may give it less attention. For some people tiredness results in low-mood, while in others it results in being tired. I've always been the low-mood group.  Luckily, I seem to have found the antidote to neuroticism. Like I said in the video I made, its about an awareness of the whole process.  There I am sitting in my car in the rainy night. I feel lonely and have this hunger which I don't know when I will be able to satisfy it. I was thinking of going to a bar today just to try to make a connection, feel a connection with someone, because lesbian dating on apps around where I live is an endless frustration.  But its raining, and my hair is dirty, my knee continues to ache, and I don't feel like it.  While folding laundry and scanning forms to...

 I have recently learned that the Triune Brain theory has been fully disproved. This is quite the shock to the system and to the public consciousness, which has very much taken to the theory. I think there is a strong experiential reality of the "baser instincts" or otherwise, a hierarchy of impulses, that fits neatly into the model of the Triune Braine.  I need to look into it more, but I don't necessarily think that this particular theory being disproved negates that experiential reality of a hierarchy of needs. It merely reorganizes how we spatially conceptualize it, maybe. Similar to how the constructed theory of emotions does not plunge us into chaos, and queer theory does not erase the reality of things such as sex... a conceptual shift cannot negate obvious immediate realities. Intellectual deconstruction can not physically deconstruct material reality. All it can do is give us leverage in our interactions with the material, and its ability to give us leverage is e...

 Since having this breakthrough recently, there has been a real shift for me. This has been very obvious in my practice where all of a sudden the sessions are becoming powerful. Way more powerful than they were before. The reason for that is I have a clear idea of what I am actually doing, so I understand what I need to do to get there, rather than just touching someones feet with a wish and a prayer, and thoughts about which leftover pie I will eat afterwards. The issue I am having is that all this raw power has exploded all over the place. It has jacked up my energy, making it kind of chaotic. I'm one step ahead and two steps behind. My approach is crude and inconsistent. My sleep has been disrupted and I'm scrambling to figure out what to do with it. I just had a session where I made a number of mistakes. I hope the client is fine... I don't want to be making these mistakes, but its hard because I don't have a structure yet. I lack experience, and I don't have a ...

 Part of the radical restructuring must be a return to intention. That is to say, systems that we create - these constructed social machines that we set loose into our world - need to be designed so that their primary goal, their main operating principle, their "modus operandi" is to accomplish what we actually need it to accomplish. The news media should be supplying us with high quality news. Political debates and races should be about providing us with the most competant, best possible candidates. The healthcare system should be about providing us with the best possible healthcare. Technology should be about working with us as biological creatures to enhance our lives and wellbeing as much as possible. Part of this, of course, includes being beneficial to the ecosystem as a whole. Clothing manufacturers should be about making high quality, highly functional clothing that is durable. Schools should be about nurturing youth and adults and providing the best possible learning...

     Reddit person : I thought I liked this girl, I tried to get her attention, I talked to her all the time. I did kind gestures but she mostly ignored me. After a while though she started giving me attention back and that's when I lost interest. What is wrong with me.        Voltaic : Because you were interested in who you thought she was and weren't interested in who she actually was. Something about you being ignored fed into the fantasy and when she quit ignoring you, the fantasy was destroyed.        Me : What Voltaic said can very well be true. I do want to add on to that because I experienced this myself a lot. Basically how are you in relationships in general? I used to have attachment issues which basically meant that I struggled to feel safe in connection with people. My internal signals would tell me “not safe” when I was trying to form friendships, esp with people I actually wanted to form friendships with. I could have...